Lately I've felt it very easy to focus on goals and projects I'm working on. It feels great, and I've actually accomplished some stuff. I'm wondering if this has something to do with being done with school and still not having a very clear idea of my long term goals. Which bothers me. But then I keep asking myself, why do I need a Five-year plan or whatever? As long as I am doing what I want to be doing now, why do I need to be so obsessed with my future?
I have the scholarly type parents who have drilled it into my head that happiness in life is achieved by having lots of education and a successful career. I thought I was going down that path for a bit when I wanted to get a doctorate and be an archaeologist or historian, but recently I've realized that those are not my plans, but my parents plans for me. I think I do want to be a teacher of some sort, but I don't want to be in school for the next ten years then be trapped in the academia bubble forever. I've kind of gotten a taste of that bubble and it's scary.
I love making art and I love interacting with all different types of people. I also love learning and really geeky stuff (like a book I recently read on the history of the Silk Road) but you don't have to be in school for that. I guess I'm just going to roll with this for a while. Hopefully I won't get burned out anytime soon.
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